Occasionally I get into a funk where I know exactly what I should be doing in my life, but I feel a little bit too lazy to do it. I try hard to have realistic expectations for myself, so I’m not referring to to-do lists. I’m talking about the basics: Reading my scriptures, praying, serving my family with the right kind of attitude and fulfilling my role as the kind of mother I know the Lord wants me to be. Some days I feel worn down– and just lazy, I guess– and I rationalize that I need a break. I only feel like doing stuff I want to do, not the stuff I should do (which is obviously self-defeating because I’m denying myself the very blessings I need to get back on track).
Clark is 6. Last night he taught our family home evening lesson about service. He bore his testimony at the end of his lesson:
“So if you know you should do service, but you really don’t want to because you just don’t feel like doing service even if someone tells you to, you still have to do it. Because service equals love.”
And that’s when the Holy Ghost reminded me of a lesson I learned earlier this year: When I struggle, I need to pray to love what the Lord loves. When I see the love, I see the joy.
We discussed the service we do for each other in our family, and Clark said that “if Mom was gone from our family, that would be horrible. I would starve to death.” He told us all to draw a picture of service and then we showed them to each other. This is what my husband drew:
He said (pointing to the right side), “This is mommy putting socks in the washing machine,” and (then pointing to the left) “This is Jesus washing the feet of his disciples.” The kids all giggled at his artwork, but I understood what he meant, and I love him for it.
“Follow me, and do the things which ye have seen me do.” (3 Nephi 31:12)
“Inasmuch as ye have done it unto one of the least of these my brethren, ye have done it unto me.” (Matthew 25:40)
So, Clark pretty much got it right, didn’t he? Service equals love.