I’m no vision expert, but I believe a lazy eye is when one eye is misaligned, doesn’t focus simultaneously with the other eye, and loses its ability to see details. It’s an analogy for how I’ve felt ever since I got back from our vacation. February here is quite bleak, especially compared with Florida. Part of me knows exactly what I should be doing around the house and in pursuit of my own personal goals. Another part of me– the lazy eye– just doesn’t feel like it, and would rather do lots of other non-productive, low-effort things.
My back yard has looked a whole lot like this the last week or so:
And all I want to do is sit by this:
And watch or read this:
I KNOW I should do this (except with more clothes on):
and a lot more of this kind of stuff:
But I’ve felt so lazy, and I’ve been allowing myself to become distracted. It’s easy to be distracted– sometimes by my own cares and moods, sometimes by lesser things. But it’s a yucky feeling because I can do so much better, and it’s much easier when I’m consistent about doing the things that inspire me. So, I’m recommitting myself to this (fast forward video to about 5:30 for the most applicable points):
So, yeah, February kind of bites, but I’m powerful. God has asked me for “an eye single to His glory,” and when I focus on what matters most, especially with BOTH eyes, He makes me fit for whatever life requires of me. Anybody else out there struggling with focus right now? Let’s reclaim our wandering eye together. I declare today the last day of my funk.