Summer is coming and this is my favorite time of year, except for the part about swimsuits. The other day I was outside in the yard while the kids were playing. It was sunny and warm and breezy and beautiful– the kind of day that just makes me feel content. And then, suddenly, I felt a little bit panicky because it’s ALREADY JUNE and it’s going so fast and summer’s going to be gone and it’s going to be snowing again before I even know it. STOP THE CLOCK ALREADY! I really wanted to freeze the calendar and stay in June 3rd for a long, long time. I keep thinking about that song by the Steve Miller band that says, “Time keeps on slippin’, slippin’, slippin’ into the future . . . “ And I thought about the Book of Mormon, where it says (somewhere, I’m too lazy to look it up) that in the last days, people’s treasures will become slippery. Time is a treasure and it’s so hard to hang on to; it literally slips through our hands.
Grant lost his first front tooth the other day. Now he looks like an all-American snaggle-toothed boy:
It made me nostalgic, and I went back and read one of my very first blog posts from August 2008.
So my oldest child, Grant, just lost his first tooth. I’m thinking to myself, “It wasn’t that long ago that he got his first tooth! And he’s already losing them?!” Other moms (the ones who had toddlers and preschoolers a long time ago and actually lived to talk about it) always say, “they grow so fast. Enjoy it while you can,” and you know how inside you say stuff like “yah, whatever… I’ve already planned in detail the first 3 weeks of activities once my youngest gets into school, and don’t even get me started on retirement…”?
Well, this tooth thing has made me think that maybe I do want time to slow down a little. I mean, come on, kids are just never as cute once those big ol’ crooked horse teeth start growing in. And now he’s starting kindergarten in a few weeks, and even though I’m thrilled about the tiny dose of “freedom” it might offer me, I dread the influence of “bad kids” and elementary school Darwinism once he’s out of my watchful eye.
I find comfort in the scripture in Ecclesiastes that says, “To every thing there is a season, and a time to every purpose under the heaven.” Then it talks about things like dancing, crying, etc., but I think that it really does mean every thing, like losing teeth, going to kindergarten, and retiring. I can’t help but think that God wants me to take in each season and actually live it through, the same way I must live each season of the year . . . I can’t just skip ahead or pause or rewind the calendar. So, I’ll just start to enjoy the toothless years in one child and the teething years in another and just take the moments as they come. (But, seriously, don’t you think God must laugh a little when he puts those ugly big adult teeth in little kids’ mouths?)
Sigh. And now he’s finishing first grade, and Clark’s finishing kindergarten, and Natalie’s a bright-eyed preschooler. It did kind of pass like a dream. I always say that the days can be SO long, but the weeks and months just fly past. So this summer I’m going to relish time, savor it. I’m hanging onto this slippery summer as tight as I can. Do you think putting my calendar in the freezer would help?